It's being conditioned to be conditional. I will love you if only you do this... or don't do that.
Most parents have uncondtional love for their children, but when you are told obey obey obey, you'll serve your God without question and that would include shunnig your children if the WT tells you to do so. If your children did something that the WT has told you is wrong, you will uphold God's laws or WT interruptations of laws.
Worldly people love their children even when they have done wrong. exJWs love their children even when they've done wrong. JWs turn their children into the elders and let the shit hit the fan. I know, I was one of them. I'd never again confide in the elders if my life depended on it. They reproved mine for things and then I'd learn others did the same or far worst and got nothing, it was swept under the rug. sweetie, youre gonna wake up to just more than "you want to do things your own way". Your life as a JW will change as you learn more.. the lies you've been taught, your views of the world will change. EVerything you've trusted will be gone. But in the long run, your life will be yours! You can control your life. You just have to learn how to not let WT, elders etc guilt or shame you.
What do you want to do with your life?